Gibson: A Forever Heart Dog's Rainbow Bridge Anniversary 🌈✨🐕
My fluffy snuggle boy, Gibson, with his wolf stuffie.
December can be a the most wonderful time of the year, and it is...but, it can also be a very melancholy time of year, too. Can you feel both? Yes. I sure do. Many, many moons ago when I was young and so enjoyed all of the magic of the holidays, I never could understand how someone could feel during the "merriest time of year." Now that I'm an adult, and lost both my mother right before Thanksgiving and then one month after, I lost my heart dog, Gibson, nine days before Christmas. For the first time in my life, I understood feeling sad during the merriest time of year. Then, three years ago, I lost my Wolfie, the last of my FiveSibes, in the beginning of December...so now...although I love the holidays and am so blessed to watch the magic in the eyes of. my young grandchildren, my losses are also there. I try to focus on the wonderful memories over all the years, but I have to say, there are moments when those tears just fall.
And that's okay.
Today, nine years ago, my big, fluffy, silly boy, earned his furangel wings (and not from his epilepsy, but from cancer). I remember going into his surgery, I was well-aware he may not make it, but as always with my warrior boy, I believed he would. I mean I just lost my mother and I needed him. And, he always came through every set back--epilepsy, torn CCL, tumor removal, and bromide toxcity. He was the world's most special boy, and I needed him to help me with my grief. Yet, it was not in the cards this time, and I lost my boy. Yes, I still had my four, but in some ways, it was worse losing him and having to see my other four grieve as well. But we did. Together, with a forever hole in all of our hearts. A hole that scabs over in time, but never ever goes away.
"Those we love don't go away. They walk beside us every day. Unseen, unheard, but always near. Still loved, still missed, and very dear.” ~Alex MacLean
So, today, I'll look for some snow and maybe even feel a slight "Gibbie Nibbie" - his little way of nibbling at my arm. Or, maybe I'll feel the weight of him, all 98 lbs, pushing up against my leg as I sit on the sofa. Or, a touch of his big polar bear paw on my foot. No matter what, he is forever with me in my heart and in my memories. And once again, I will remember all our fun times together and that uber-special love that existed between us.
So, how long do we share our beloved pets' Rainbow Bridge anniversaries?
However long we want and need to.
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